She wandered in and out of relationships for years. No idea what she wanted, who she was, she only knew to keep searching. The journey required her only to be open and not to seek an anchor or security.

Of course, she couldn’t float with it. She would contract and spasm into one unsuitable relationship after another. Each extremes of what she needed to face, the most recent being her own loving nature.

And then, finally, she fell still. Still enough to hear her heart call for something more than just gratification of some warped ideal. It required of her a mission to be more loving, more giving, more open, and to seek someone who could honor and accept her uniqueness. That she not back away, flit, fluster, skirt and fall back from moments of real emotional mastery, real feeling, real love, real deep shuddering orgasms. She breathed low and tight through her teeth. A shift had occurred. (more…)